What is love?
A few days ago my friend got married. He is the first one among us to agree to those 7 promises. Initially it was shocking to know of his impending doom, then it became funny but now that everything has been done with, it seems like a reality. On the wedding day we all friends gathered around him and wanted to know what’s the secret. Secret of love. Secret of marriage. Everyone of us has been in and out of love atleast once, all but me. I have never been in love, I have always been without. I’m proud, I’m not emotional, I don’t easily give in to senses. I’m happy.
Don’t begin your relationship thinking of sex.
Feel the real love.
There is happiness in just being together.
That’s when we had to shut his mouth. We couldn’t take his married-man bullshit anymore. But then there was something which struck me. Feel the real love. I don’t know if I have ever felt the real love. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel the real love. I love my parents but then everyone loves their parents, even those who hate them. Everything is sounding so cliched. I have always looked forward to the excitement of chase, the bitter the better. But then where is love?
I miss someone because she is gone, would it be called as love. Or is it more like, one gets so used to someone who has always been there and when they are gone you feel the void but it’s not necessarily love. More like a hoarding in front of your house which has been suddenly removed. You dont love hoardings. You love people.
Then what?
I so desperatley want to meet her but I want to appear so perfect and so smooth and so unlike myself that I’m resisting her. I want her so much that I’m afraid of losing her even before I’ve got her. I fear sharing her with anyone. She is making me want to feel extremely apologetic about everything I do. I’m always on the fringes, not wanting to make a wrong move. But I also know that she will forgive me everything I do, but still. I have started feeling differently since I have known her, I can’t pin-point what is it but Ahh! it is something fuckingly funny and good and at the same time it gives me this empty feeling in my stomach. I want to let go, but I’m even afraid to call her. She might be busy. She might be wanting to seek love from someone better than me. She may not be wanting to love me. Maybe she is just humouring me. Or maybe she loves me a lot. I have to ask her many questions. I’ll give her a tight hug when we meet tomorrow or day after or maybe after next summer. I’ll ask her, ‘am I in love with you?’.
Isaiah says:
This is dedicated to someone, I feel, I love.
August 11th, 2006 at 11:54 pm
kunal says:
well written ishan….i am not the expressive types but i know what u mean here….
its called getting “USED TO” someone….
if i am right….:P
August 12th, 2006 at 12:50 am
Kunal Goel says:
listen ishan, you cant be in love, forget it man, you dont have a goddanm heart.
August 12th, 2006 at 01:29 am
Kunal Goel says:
error of commission or omission in this line:
I want to her so much
August 12th, 2006 at 01:35 am
Rachna says:
Hey i thought u went to that wedding thingy to pataoify girls
but man there has been some mental contemplation too!!!!
August 12th, 2006 at 08:38 am
Isaiah says:
There is no error anywhere. No commission, no ommission and not even compensating.
August 12th, 2006 at 09:40 am
payal says:
hey ishan….. that 6th para where u hav mentioned about the void thing… it seems like deja vu… (if u get wat i am trying to say…) i dont know if u r in love or not b’coz in the end u r ur best judge… it wd be easy for me to say “yes!!! u r in love” but unless u believe it there is nothing much one can do…. and who wd be more happier than me to see u be in love….:wink:
August 12th, 2006 at 11:00 am
Kunal Goel says:
ishan if there is no error then please explain me the meaning of:
I want to her so much
August 12th, 2006 at 04:14 pm
saasha d god says:
best o luck
August 12th, 2006 at 05:32 pm
Isaiah says:
Ok Kunal agreed…I think all that love had blinded me to my mistakes.
August 12th, 2006 at 06:55 pm
Isaiah says:
Thank you Payal…i too wud like to believe that I’m in love. I know exactly what u r saying.
Saasha needs a doc…cant really say wat u mean…bt thanks.
And Kunal_s I think u wud appreciate this link as well
http://imagine.blogintro.com/bbpress/topic.php?id=227&replies=1
August 12th, 2006 at 07:00 pm
Ankur says:
Hey i believe u r in love… But very well written…even i have this empty feeling…
August 12th, 2006 at 09:31 pm
Neha says:
Well written…? Alright, i think i need a nightcap…
August 13th, 2006 at 12:07 am
Kunal Goel says:
haha neha
August 13th, 2006 at 05:07 am
Neha says:
haha kunal
August 13th, 2006 at 11:25 am
Isaiah says:
what is all this..cant u guys see tat i’m in fucking love.
August 13th, 2006 at 03:58 pm
Anshu says:
:roll:can u b in love or it is a strong desire to get some1…. cant expect these thing from ur side dear ur not emotional and dont even try to be…..
August 13th, 2006 at 09:43 pm
Isaiah says:
Thanks Ankur!!
Anshu I know I’m not emotional but this time I’d like to believe that I am.
August 13th, 2006 at 10:35 pm
Neha says:
well as always… love sucks. It sucks everything out of u and leaves you dry…
August 13th, 2006 at 10:41 pm
Isaiah says:
Well even if it sucks u dry…I want it to suck me dry…I have never been sucked dry and I want to know how it feels…maybe I’ll be better after the experience.
August 13th, 2006 at 10:53 pm
Isaiah ka baap says:
Cut this Crap son,write something meaningful that makes me laugh
August 14th, 2006 at 02:47 pm
Isaiah says:
Isaiah must adhere to Param Poojya Baapuji.
August 15th, 2006 at 02:03 am
Deep says:
“can u b in love or it is a strong desire to get some1…. cant expect these thing from ur side dear ur not emotional and dont even try to be….. ”
true for u Ishan. Its just the desire of getting someone.
Once u get her, take her out to dinner, movies, spend time with her, make love to her, U wont feel the same as u do now. ur desires and feelings for her will change. This is nothing but desire to GET her.
Come back Ishan, u’re one great nasty rascal, hindu samaj ko aapki kamina panti ki sakt avashakta hai baba.
August 18th, 2006 at 10:02 am
Ashish says:
Hi ishaan….
kyon ho gaya na….!!!
I knew this was coming… But so early is was not guessed…
what i could get from ur story is that u need more time dear…
August 18th, 2006 at 10:34 am
Isaiah says:
thank you deep…u r the only one who knows me inside out!! :mrgreen::mrgreen::mrgreen:
No Ashish i dont need more time…there is no such thing as the right time. Time is always right.
August 18th, 2006 at 04:10 pm
Shashank says:
Ishan u
in love …….
everything goes blank
September 7th, 2006 at 01:02 pm
Isaiah says:
I’m in love with erstwhile Nymphlover…good to see him back.
September 8th, 2006 at 12:15 am
D.K.GIRI says:
”LOVE is a wonderful creation of God that is well known by all of us.” so dear friend we ought 2 respect it at all . U all r gud & NICE viewer …………….continue it with
love.
September 21st, 2006 at 04:17 pm
dolly says:
hi .ISHAN:P
thats ………..cool
very cool
now i think u know ……..wat love is
hmmmmmmm
September 22nd, 2006 at 01:40 pm
Isaiah says:
Thank u dolly and D.K. Giri.
September 22nd, 2006 at 01:44 pm
D.K.GIRI says:
It’s ur welcome dear friend Isaiah……….
September 24th, 2006 at 10:08 am
shavya says:
this makes you to love someone to want someone special in life and to ofcourse say
“I LOVE SOMEONE:!:”
October 2nd, 2006 at 10:11 pm
Sheikha says:
Love isn’t really the be all and end all of life, although you would like someone by your side into whom you can put your blind faith and trust.
I heard somewhere from someone that after a decade or two of marriage life the love does fade away, the only element that becomes strong and overwhelming is the sense of companionship…
November 10th, 2006 at 02:22 am
Anupama says:
Never knew this side of urzz thats really alot of thought that you have put in bout love .. hmmm i think U r in love……. best of luk with her:) and i wish that poor girl all the luk
January 8th, 2007 at 01:58 pm
Farheen says:
Sounds intereseting…Why are ppol so confused by the thought of u falling in love??Makes me wonder…Who is the cause of such cool thoughts
January 10th, 2007 at 05:05 pm
Ishan Dubey says:
It’s you sweetheart!!
January 10th, 2007 at 10:53 pm
lala says:
kahani ghar ghar ki
kahani ghar ghar ki
November 12th, 2008 at 10:52 pm