It Just Wont Pour
Another drunken day comes to a blurry end and the sky seems to burn ember. Warm black liquid gushes down my throat to mix with the vodka coloured blood. The moon and the stars are all in place, like always. Only I have been displaced. I do not know whether this revelation brings more joy or pain.
Trucks roll by. Carrying people, things… In another hour, all will be still like death. And then they would come, the crickets, to make their presence felt. The wind would howl then, shake the eucalyptus trees from their foundations. The sounds would be like the seas rushing to shore. Only this sea never finds a shore. It would find its way to my bedroom - The breeze. The bedroom which has seen almost no life in the last three days. Only a corpse-like-me, passed out from the incessant lonliness and pain. And of course the vodka and the lime juice. But the wind still finds it’s way inside.
I would soon clear my head and go out stargazing. I will look at the orion and the big dipper and I will again write his name in the stars. And I will try to look hard into the red skies, try to see if I can find any angels or demons. I will try to sell my soul to the devil and buy me some brandy. I have been cold too long.
The clouds are heavy and it seems it will all pour down today. But I do not know why I dont feel like searching for cover. Let it rain and drench me through and through. Cleanse my soul of him. I do not wish to love him anymore. I do not wish to love anyone anymore. Not even myself.
Let it rain and take away this pain. Let it rain hard and drown me. The clouds hide the stars. Once again leaving me high and dry. They wont pour. And they wont go away. They would stay and not let me see the stars. They would stay and not pour. They wont drown me today too. They wont cleanse me of him. And the Devil wont buy my soul, so laden is it with the mortifying love for him. I wont get any brandy.
Maybe I will just fade off… cold to my nerves…
- Neha
baba says:
August 1st, 2006 at 02:05 pm
neha says:
some one please kill me.
August 1st, 2006 at 02:31 pm