Poisoned Life
It always ends in the same manner. The flickering flame that dies just before it reaches to it’s most glorious moment. I wonder how long does it take to tire of something that never came to you easily in the first place.
Not long, I presume. People of tragedies can never become fairy tales. Their endings are always tragic. And sometimes, hope that came in bits and pieces, chokes off and dies.
A long time ago, I stopped playing blame games. I realized it doesn’t do anyone any good. Or any bad. When a situation comes where you feel the need for a blame game, chances are, all parties concerned have already stopped caring. At least the ones who matter to you the most. Or to whom the blames are directed. Again, most likely, they both are the same persons.
I have always believed in shedding my tears in solitude. Earlier because I thought sharing emotions was a strange show of weakness. Later because I realized that nobody really cared or liked to see tears.
Sometimes though, I wish someone would. Bravery is not as easy a job as it seems. And happiness is the harder feigned.
Sometimes life passes through in liquid lines, so fluidly, like tears on some greasy cheeks. The sadness that comes next, hangs around like an unwanted aura. A cursed gift.
The slow poison that you then consume, wishing to be finally corroded in totality, stops working. Refusing to propel you to your miserable end.
He had once remarked that all my words seemed to him as dipped in the poison of tears. All I wanted to tell him then was… that he was wrong. Tears are never poison. They never were.
The only part he never realized was that my existance was permanently shrouded by the pall of everyday realities.
- Neha
anirudh says:
dunno wat but sadness has stuck mostof us…how r u neha?
June 9th, 2006 at 08:49 pm
Aashim says:
To tire of things tht didnt come to u easily is esoterically easy once they ve.. the chase is better than the catch no one takes u for granted then..
June 11th, 2006 at 12:38 am
abhishek says:
June 19th, 2006 at 12:07 am
samiya says:
well tears can never be poison indeed they are a means to stop poison creeping into the soul. very true its never useful to play blame coz in the end its only for the person to realise whom im blaming ,doesnt approve of my presence in his/her life. so wats the point in it.
January 27th, 2007 at 06:42 pm