When It Rained
The clouds had just begun to gather as he closed the door behind him. I turned to look at him, like always. Taking my time to let that last look linger. When he’ll turn away, to retrace his steps, I’ll go home and have dirty thoughts of us.
He struggles with the old lock for a bit, and finally gets it. I turn back to face the road, so that he wouldn’t catch me looking. He quickens his pace to walk right behind me. It’s our daily ritual. It’s a familiar place, and we had just come out of an abandoned building. If someone sees us together, all hell would break loose. I walk slower than usual, trying to catch the scent of our lovemaking that still lingered in his clothes. He tries to push back his scanty hair into place and whispers, asking me to walk a little faster.
He’s getting late. For work I think. I’m not sure where he’ll go from here. Home, work, friend’s place, lover’s place. I do not know. But I walk as slowly as before, sensing his impatience at my impertinence. Breaking his own rule, he steps ahead to come besides me and asks what is wrong with me. Have I gone deaf? He’s angry. Not used to being disobeyed. I don’t say anything, but keep my pace intact.
Slowly I make my way out of the narrow streets full of imaginary onlookers, to the parking lot, him fuming by my side. I stop for a kiss. He turns to me and hands me my car keys, hurriedly wishes me goodbye and walks to his car, parked at the opposite end. I look at him walk away. The saddest feeling ever, coming over and drowning me into a sea of pain. He slides easily into his expensive car and drives away, while i stand and watch the growing distance between us.
He forgot to kiss me goodbye.
And it began to rain.
- Neha
dolphin says:
yaar …why do u write sad stuff….
May 29th, 2006 at 07:07 pm
Sudhanshu says:
I’m sure the dirty thoughts part was taken from real life !
May 29th, 2006 at 11:51 pm
Abhishek says:
May 29th, 2006 at 11:55 pm
madhavi says:
y’know what…ur write ups would make lovely movie clips…some of em are so visual and intimate at the same time…
maybe you should try a hand at that.,..
can almost see ur name at the end of a “star bestsellers..”….
…concieved and written be neha jhingon!
May 30th, 2006 at 10:30 am
Neha says:
hee hee!
dolphin, i write sad stuff because im sad. and nothing changes that. not even happiness.
Sud, you should come sit by me sometime. I could tell you some really dirty thoughts.
Abhishek, thanks for your patience. sometimes the skies do cry with all of us.
Maddy you are too kind to me…!
May 30th, 2006 at 03:18 pm
anirudh says:
and someone else too cried again neha..!
May 31st, 2006 at 10:21 am
Abhishek says:
y r u sad?
June 7th, 2006 at 03:25 pm