Turn Back Time
Lying on your back, watching the fan swirl. Sleep is miles away from your eys. Tired to your bone, even though you have just been lying like that for what seems like an eternity. Tired yet; exhausted. Fatigued…
You want to close your eyes. But you can’t. Everytime you do, you see his face. More than ever now. With every whiff of the air, you remember the scent… his scent that lingered on you everytime he took you in his arms.
You don’t want to remember. You try not to remember; rather than forget. And then the air comes in broken gasps. You wish for scentless air. Clean of him.
You look at your hands. The one’s he loved the most and you want to peel off the skin. But what do you do of your soul? The one that’s still corrupted from his malice.
Bit by bit the knife of pain slices through, and you wait for the tears. They do not come so quickly anymore. They have learnt to be arrogant too. So you get back to watching the fan while waiting for them.
Sometimes you wish this fan could be the wheel of time…
- Neha
Tags: time, malice, rememberance
nish says:
the wheel of time has many analogies, many faces, many lives. whatever gets you through the day. in your case, it could be this fan. if you want it to be. and everything changes, everything ends, and something else begins. without there being a face for this phenomenon. no wheel. no fan. just reality.
March 27th, 2006 at 02:36 pm
anirudh says:
kaash muhhabbat maasum na hoti..na ye dil dariya hote…kaash khudayi banti yun hi..khud hi hum zariya hote..anjaam kash ye chiz na hoti
accha bura fir kya paate..? sehra to fir bhi milna tha hum dub dubkar kyun jaate..?
March 27th, 2006 at 06:33 pm
kruz says:
i dont understand one thing, y do ppl break up when they feel so much pain…or y do they fall in love again and again…perenially confused
April 1st, 2006 at 11:37 am
Neha says:
Well confused is good… aint it? Circumstances cant always be controlled honey. Some people fall in love only once. and they live in its misery. I know some of them. those who dont understand… they are too naiive or just lying.
April 1st, 2006 at 12:38 pm
kruz says:
well i think that ppl dont live in misery becoz someone broke their heart, i guess its just becoz they enjoy the pain, and also the fact that they have finally found someone to blame for their failures….real winners keep moving on….just a thot, am not pointin my finger on neone…PEACE!!!
April 3rd, 2006 at 11:16 am
neha says:
lol! I hope you are not Vishak Joseph. You sound like him tho…
April 6th, 2006 at 12:00 pm
kruz says:
who’s Visak Joseph….???? i guess he might be my evil twin in a parallel universe!!!!????
April 9th, 2006 at 07:06 pm
Neha says:
Vishak Joseph is actually no one
April 10th, 2006 at 02:20 pm