The Crystal Display
I feel foolish. And it’s not often. Another feather in an overcrowded cap. Another notch in a leather belt. A conquest that would soon lose meaning. I cease to be human. I become a silver trophy. Amongst countless other trinkets. In a crystal display.
He calls for people to see his treasure, his feathered cap, his notched belt. I twitch nervously in the crystal display, feeling faint and tired of standing all day. And being looked at so intently. I try to ignore but they make a lot of noise.
I wonder why I’m here. In this crystal display…
I feel foolish.
It was my wish, another whim. To be brought here. They say it. Careful what you wish for. I was reckless and now i see the fire that lurks to sting. It was one of my favourite wish.
To be scrutinized like this? No.
They look and go. Fresh faces roll in. And look. I am fidgety. Trying hard to be conspicous. But I’m his trophy. On the centerstage today. Tomorrow it would be some one else. I do not enjoy this.
Permanence. But not in a crystal display. Permanence is what I go looking for all around. Permanence is the answer to all my questions.
This heart yearns for permanence
I want to smash the crystal display but it is just too pretty. So I decide to endure another few humiliating hours. They will be tired of me soon and will turn back to study their own trinkets. Long forgotton in their dusty racks. I will stay for some more time. So that they can be through with what they came for. So that that they can talk and gossip all they want. I will leave them be for today. Let them admire him. I will play along. But only for tonight. Till I grow my heart back again and walk out of his exhibition….
- Neha
Tags: Exhibitionism
anirudh says:
March 18th, 2006 at 10:11 am
Dolphin says:
Nice one Neha.
But some of us choose to have our soul in a crystal display…i know some people who like it….
Anyways….keep your chin up..
March 18th, 2006 at 11:23 am
Kunal Goel says:
good piece.
(small typo in the last line)
March 18th, 2006 at 12:03 pm
nish says:
why u choose to be in that position is something i dont understand. call me ignorant or unintelligent or poseur, but i dont think anyone can or should own anyone or let oneself be owned to this extent.
March 18th, 2006 at 06:18 pm
Neha says:
Nish, call it the servantile side of a juvenile infatuation. I agree. No one should let themselves be owned to that extent.
March 18th, 2006 at 06:29 pm
Teutsch says:
Neha, you are sunshine
March 19th, 2006 at 01:05 pm
shanth says:
but wat abt the collector?? the wearer of the feathered cap?? the owner of the belt?? to whom each notch means how fat o thin he’s gone……:P k wat i mean is wat abt the collector to whom each of his trophy means sumthn…………………………??
-Ze collector
April 10th, 2006 at 06:06 pm
Neha says:
hmmm… did i mention he was a collecter? no he was just someone who wanted to show off…
April 12th, 2006 at 01:52 pm