Ice Maiden Facade
You’ve never been to a temple. Your parents couldn’t ever drag you to one. You go with friends, but always sit outside. You never folded ur hands in front of an idol, never bowed your head in humility. But today you find yourself awkwardly climbing the steps to this old temple on the cliff.
You are not sure if you want to do this. But today you need to. You want a man to man talk with ‘Him’. Aask ‘Him’ what you did wrong and why are you being punished.
You steal a look around, you don’t want anyone familiar to see you here. You don’t want them to know that you, the woman of steel has turned to water. It took just one man to bring her down, when god tried to weather her for years and failed. Today she has been defeated by the cruelty of one man, who claimed to be her well wisher.
You sheepishly stand in front of the idol you swore you would never bow to. You feel chicken, you want to run out, but you keep your calm and put on a bold front.
You need to fall back on god today because there is no one else you want to talk to. You’d rather crawl and cry in front of the inanimate model of stone staring in your face than let any human know that you’re weak.
And yet, you crave for the human touch. You are in a dilemma, one you can’t fight off. You dont know what you want. It has never happened to you. You have never turned pale, never lost hope and never felt so lonely. You are crying now. Months of pain turning to tears and just falling down.
You are weak. It’s ok to be weak once in a while, a small voice inside speaks to you, soothing you down.
People are looking at you now. They know you are crying. The ice maiden is melting. Today you don’t care. Not that much. You are weak. This is your moment of weakness. You might regret it later, but today this is your solace. You get down to your knees and pour your heart out through your eyes. Today you have succumbed to the divine…
- Neha
ER@sUrf3R says:
Yes…bow down! I am the ethereal voice of God! I shall grant you … 5+6…-10 for sins…-1 for hesitating to ask…that makes it….where’s my calculator? Damn…these human beings can be so demanding! I’m retiring
February 2nd, 2006 at 03:56 pm