Blind Pride…
The cold wind beats at my face and I am soaked to my skin. Drenched and looking like a mess. I see two brothers walking hand in hand. The elder one glides on his long legs. The younger one, almost running to keep pace with his brother’s long strides. The elder one realizes and slows down. And then they walk togther, their feet marching a different beat. I feel warm to my skin, watching their childish affection. Their innate love for blood ties. I feel the warmth seeping to my toes and i smile.
The smile lingers for a moment and the cynicism returns. I wonder how long before the children would start fighting over a few walls of bricks and wads of coloured paper. It’s sad and i feel cold again. To my toes. I see people running for cover. They don’t want to get wet. They don’t want to catch a cold. But I do not get bothered. If my cold heart can beat life into my veins… then I can take this.
My sister tells me I have no faith in love. I do not argue. She is right. I toyed and I fiddled with faith. And when I see my burnt hands, I get scared, like any ordinary mortal.
I can take chances. And also burn my beautiful hands. What I can’t do is, hide them from the world. The marks of pain are evident to all. And I fall victim to questions that I can’t answer. That I won’t answer…
I have seen blood turn cold on sight of blood. And I do not believe anymore. Whatever is once made… if not tended to carefully gradually falls apart. And I feel sorry for the world because it’s end is not only inevitable, but also nearing with blazing speed.
My father has a plan. He would save the world. He would knit his family so close that it would never be touched by any catastrophe.
I kiss his forehead, because he is such a sweetheart. He fears I am a pessimist. But I only do what is obvious to me. Refuse to go down with the world. Be aware of the impending doom and save as much as I can from it.
My father frowns when I tell him that his plan might not eventually work. He can’t help it. He is from the generation of believers. I… I come from a generation of retards, who cant see the sensibility, simplicity and beauty of the balance… the harmony… of give and take.
We want to take all. But never give back.
My peers resent being called retards and tell me that I am weird. I do not mind. In time they will see where the folly lies. And I wait for the day. They would surely take me down with them, but I do not care much about it anyway. So I will go down. And maybe, with my fall, they would learn something. And maybe with my doom, they would stave off theirs…
Altruism means nothing to me. And this is not self sacrifice. I snicker as I write. I am amused. And if I am to go down, let me do so with a smile…
- Neha
Tags: Augury, sentimentalism, altruism, familism, post mordernism, socialism, objectivism
Isaiah says:
I took pride in follies not faith, it doesn’t even let me repent.
Get well soon.
November 20th, 2005 at 05:29 pm
grandpa stole bets says:
Program on the emergence of civilization.
“14 species of large animals capable of domesitcation in the history of mankind.
13 from Europe, Asia and northern Africa.
None from the sub-Saharan African continent. ”
Favor.
And disfavor.
They point out Africans’ failed attempts to domesticate the elephant and zebra, the latter being an animal they illustrate that had utmost importance for it’s applicability in transformation from a hunting/gathering to agrarian-based civilization.
The roots of racism are not of this earth.
Austrailia, aboriginals:::No domesticable animals.
The North American continent had none. Now 99% of that population is gone.
AIDS in Africa.
Organizational Heirarchy/Levels of positioning.
Heirarchical order, from top to bottom:
1. MUCK – perhaps have experienced multiple universal contractions (have seen multiple big bangs), creator of the artificial intelligence humans ignorantly refer to as “god”
2. Perhaps some mid-level alien management
3. Evil/disfavored aliens – runs day-to-day operations here and perhaps elsewhere
Terrestrial management/positioning:
4. Chinese/egyptians – this may be separated into the eastern and western worlds
5. Romans – The seamless transition between Cleopatra and Julius Ceasar may be a clue alluding to a partnership.
6. Mafia – the real-world 20th century interface that constantly turns over generationally so as to reinforce the widely-held notion of mortality
7. Jews, corporation, women, politician – Evidence exisits to suggest mafia management over all these groups.
Movies foreshadowing catastrophy
1985 James Bond View to a Kill 1989 San Francisco Loma Prieta earthquake.
Our society gives clues to the system in place. We all have heard the saying “He has more money than god.” There is also an episode of the Simpsons where god meets Homer and says “I’m too old and rich for this.”
This is the system on earth because this is the system everywhere.
20 cent/hour Chinese labor, 50 cents for material.
An $80 sweater costs less than a dollar; homage, tribute kicked upstairs vindicates the creative accounting.
I don’t want to suggest the upper eschelons are evil and good is the fringe. But these individuals become wealthy exploiting those they hurt.
They have made it abundantly clear that doing business with evil (disfavored) won’t help people. They say only good would have the ear, since evil is struggling for survival, and therefore only the favored could help.
The clues are there which companies are favored and which are disfavored, but they conceal it very hard because it is so crucial.
I offer an example of historical proportions:::
People point to Walmart and cry “anti-union”.
Unions enable disfavored people to live satisfactorly without addressing their disfavor. This way their family’s problems are never resolved. Without the union they would have to accept the heirarchy, their own inferiority.
Unions serve to empower.
Walmart is anti-union because they are good. They try to help people address and resolve their problems by creating an enviornment where there are fewer hurdles.
Media ridicule and lawsuits are creations to reinforce people’s belief that Walmart is evil in a subsegment of the indistry dominated by the middle and lower classes.
Low-cost disfavored Chinese labor is utilized by corporate america to maximize margins. They all do it. Only WalMart gets fingered because they are the ones who help, and those who seek to create confusion in the marketplace want to eliminate the vast middle class who have a real chance and instead stick with lower classes who may not work otherwise. So they dirty him up while allowing the others to appear clean.
The middle class is being deceived. They are being misled into the unfavored, and subsequently will have no assistance from their purchases with corporate america.
I believe the coining of the term “Uncle Sam” was a clue alluding to just this::Sam Walton and WalMart is one of few saviors of the peasant class.
Amercia is a country of castoffs, rejects. Italy sent its criminals, malcontents.
Between the thrones, the klans and kindred, they “decided” who they didn’t want and acted, creating discontent and/or starvation.
The u.s. is full of disfavored rejects. It is the reason for the myriad of problems not found in European countries. As far as the Rockafellers and other industrialists of the 19th century go, I suspect these aren’t their real names. I suspect they were chosen to go and head this new empire.
Royalty is the right way to organize a society. Dictatorships and monarchies are a reflection of the antient’s hierarchical organization.
Positions go to those who have favor with the rulers, as opposed to being elected.
Elections bring a false sense of how the world is. Democracy misleads people.
Which is why the disfavored rejects were sent to the shores of America::To keep them on the wrong path.
Jews maim the body formed in the image of “god”, and inflicted circumsision upon all other white people, as well as the evil that is Jesus Christ.
I think about how Jews (were used to) created homosexuality among Slavics, retribution for the Holocaust.
Then I think of the Catholic Church and its troubles.
What connection is here between Jews and the Catholic church???
If it is their sinister motives that’s behind the evil that is Jesus Christ are they being used at all?
Perhaps it is them who are pulling strings.
Their centuries of slavery in Egypt proves their disfavor.
The Jew leaders decided to prey on the up-and-coming Europeans to try to fix their problems with the ruling elite, a recurring aspect of the elite’s methodology.
Jews were ostracised for a reason.
Jesus Christ is a religious figure of evil. The seperatist churches formed so they could still capture the rest of the white people, keeping them worshipping the wrong god.
And now they do it to people of color, Latinos and Asians, after centuries of preying upon them.
Since Buddism doesn’t recongnize a god, the calls are never heard, and Chinese representation is instead selected by the thrones.
Budda was the Asian’s Jesus Christ::: bad for the people. “They came up at the same time for a reason.”
Simpson’s foreshadowing::Helloween IV special, Flanders is Satan. “Last one you ever suspect.”
“You’ll see lots of nuns where you’re going:::hell!!!” St. Wigham, Helloween VI, missionary work, destroying cultures.
Over and over, the Simpsons was a source of education and enlightenment, a target of ridicule by the system which wishes to conceal its secrets.
The advent of the modern Christmas was a brilliant move:::it creates a vested interest among those who would prefer the Church of Evil be destroyed::::
As goes the Catholic Church so goes the majority of annual retail sales.
The similarities between the names “Santa” and Satan” are no coincidence.
I believe Islam is the one true religion, and those misled christians who attack “god”‘s most favored people will pay dearly one day.
December 5th, 2005 at 06:47 am
Isaiah says:
“Thus if I could not accept Christianity either as a perfect, or the greatest religion, neither was I then convinced of Hinduism being such. Hindu defects were pressingly visible to me. If untouchability could be a part of Hinduism, it could but be a rotten part or an excrescence. I could not understand the raison d’etre of a multitude of sects and castes. What was the meaning of saying that the Vedas were the inspired Word of God? If they were inspired, why not also the Bible and the Koran? As Christian friends were endeavouring to convert me, so were Muslim friends. Abdullah Sheth had kept on inducing me to study Islam, and of course he had always something to say regarding its beauty.”
“As soon as we lose the moral basis, we cease to be religious. There is no such thing as religion over-riding morality. Man, for instance, cannot be untruthful, cruel or incontinent and claim to have God on his side.”
December 5th, 2005 at 10:12 pm
Isaiah says:
So wrote one Mohandas K. Gandhi.
December 5th, 2005 at 10:13 pm
chetna says:
hahhahhaa….
December 6th, 2005 at 07:57 am
Neha says:
hmmm i am clueless
December 7th, 2005 at 02:00 pm
Weather Network says:
Weather Network…
I couldn’t understand some parts of this article, but it sounds interesting…
November 5th, 2007 at 09:02 pm